Better days

I want to think positive about my situation. But why? Because, 1) There is no pain in trying. 2) You're going to fry your brain and get a headache if you keep thinking very negative thoughts. 3) How will you improve your situation if you don't think positive?

I had a hard time trying to sleep last night thinking about yesterday's events (See this post here). Complaint here and there, I just couldn't rest with all their voices ringing in my head every second. I don't know how long it took me to finally to sleep. Probably a couple of hours even with the lights out. But because I had 2 nights of no sleep (with a 2 hour nap in between), my brain gave in to my body and slept for 14 hours. CRAZY. That's the longest time I've slept in months. And more than double my normal hours, which is usually 4 hours and 6 if  I'm lucky.

My question is, how do the higher ups (CEOs, Supervisors, President, Owners, Investors) in WAY BIGGER companies sleep when they have BIG problems? I wonder what they do in their situation. Maybe they deal better with it. I dunno. It would be nice if they gave some tips, or some insight as to what and how they think, and what they think of when they want to think positive.

I think of what would happen if I gave up on the company. I think about my family. Our food. Our house. Then I think, IT HAS TO WORK. It just has to. If I thought selfishly, it would be so easy. But what about everyone I'd be letting down? Don't I care about them to? This is why WE should stay focused. Exhaust ALL your effort into accomplishing the task. Think that one day, you and your work will be recognized. That this, THIS is all for SOMETHING. Keep going forward, keep thinking positive. Someday we'll be out of the red!

WHAT a way to start the day!

It's been a crazy CRAZY morning for me. I haven't had any sleep yet and the day before that, I only got 1 hour of sleep. Yes, you read it right. Yesterday, all I had was breakfast and 2 sodas, a coke and a sprite. Can you believe that? I was only able to have dinner at 2 friggin AM. Then it just got crazier from there. Well, this is all because I had some very important payments to pay. Very. Let's just say that if I don't, I might end up in the courtroom or something even worse. I've been in this situation before. Panicked and worried about what to do and then I picture my would-be doom if I don't make things happen. Then things get even uglier, it just feels like there's no bright light at the end of the tunnel and I just want to give up.

I don't know how to say this. I truly am grateful for the people who end up saving my butt BIG TIME. I cannot express how relieved I am. It's just so surreal to be over this huge obstacle. My mind is in a major daze from everything, including hunger and sleepiness. Though that doesn't matter right now. Sleep can wait a few more hours. Time to work.

Lessons of Life

About a year ago, I was put in charge of the family business (more like thrust into managing it really, but doesn't put in charge sound better?). So I was taught the basics, how to sell in order to make money which would in turn pay the bills, which by the way is only 20% of what I needed to know. As for the rest? I just learnt (and still learning) those along the way.

Of course, life isn't without its complications. When I found myself in a knot, I'd have no clue what to do. There was literally no one I could ask for guidance. I would always be in a foul mood feeling angry, panicked, sad, helpless and abandoned. There were tons of times I wished that all of my problems would just disappear. Sometimes even pretending like they weren't there. But it only made things it worse, creating even bigger problems. Believe me, I was scared as hell thinking it would never end. I realized that doing nothing about it isn't gonna help at all. So I did what I had to - face my problems and solve them one at a time.

Eventually things started to look up. And here I am still standing. You know the saying, "When there's a will, there's a way." It's a very good description in my case. It takes tons of willpower and inner strength to get you through tough times. I know there's always gonna be bad days and really really bad days. When you do feel like giving up, as I have many times, just think of something that keeps you going. For me, it's proving to myself that one day I will make it big time and being able to design and build my dream house with a new car to match. Remember, all those successful people had to start somewhere. Some got a lucky break but what the hell, who says we can't be just as great? Motivate yourself because there's only one person you can count on: YOU!